Life Changing

It seems like lately I've been asked by A LOT of people what I plan on doing with my life when I graduate. And to be honest with you when I get that question I just stare at the person like I've just seen an alien. The thing is I don’t know really know where the next chapter of my life is going to lead me. I've actually been questioning myself about why I decided to major in advertising and if that’s what I really want to do with my life. Don’t get me wrong, I love my major and I think I would be very happy working in an agency somewhere. But at the same time I feel like God has a bigger plan for me. Like I was meant to do something big, something that will impact people in a way I can’t even begin to imagine.

Then tonight for whatever reason Requiem by John Rutter popped up on my IPod. I had the amazing opportunity to perform in Carnegie Hall accompanied by the New York Symphonic Orchestra and under conduction of the amazing John Rutter himself.  At the age of 16 standing on that stage that night I realized for the first time that nothing was impossible for me. I mean come on, how many kids get the chance to perform in New York with a modern day Mozart.  It was the most empowering experience I have ever had in my life. 

Lauren and I after our first rehearsal with John Rutter 

I don’t know why we choose to limit ourselves. Maybe it’s because we don’t have the confidence to think we are pretty enough, talented enough, or just good enough in general to do something.  I've struggled with this my entire life. I’m sure I’m not the only one. But tonight I was reminded of the fact that I am in charge of my future and I have the power to do what I want with it. At the very least I can try. For whatever reason this epiphany lifted a huge weight off my shoulders tonight.

So from now on I’m going to dream big, try new things, and most importantly just be myself because that’s the best thing I can ever be. I encourage you to do the same. I pray every day that my life will be used for a bigger purpose. I also pray that I will always be happy with what I’m doing and have endless opportunities to experience new things. But I now have an answer to everyone’s question and the next time I’m asked my response will be simple. My answer will be that I don’t know what I’m doing after I graduate, but I do know that eventually I will be doing great things. Simple as that.

Requiem - John Rutter